you're my safest place to hide

01.15.11

it has been a while. haven't really felt like writing. been mostly busy and dealing with life.
but it's a new year and i figure i should make a fresh start...even though it's 15 days late into the year.
2012 has not been off to a great start but hopefully that will change soon. hopefully everyone else will have been off to a better start than me!
went to high tea with r.a.y.+j.a.s. yesterday. our little family is now growing! it's a little place out in whitby and very cute, much better than the first place r.a.j.a. and i stopped by. somehow we were on the right street, but got the number wrong and ended up in this little antiques store that also happened to do tea service. it was runned by a little old lady and when we asked her if they did do tea, she asnwered by saying that she could put some tables together in the back. we got out of there so fast! typical of us.
the actual place we went to was called campkin's of wellingborough tea house. they had a cranberry scones with turkey with the tea that was just so delicious! it makes me want to try my hand at making my own cranberry scones. hopefully those will turn out better than my lemon ginger scones.
after that we headed to the pickering flea market. it has been a very long time since i've been to one. the last time i went i think i was still in grade school when businesses were closed on sundays. the farmer's market here was entirely disappointing. i thought it would be this huge thing with people selling homemade jams and stuff, and i really wanted to get some after the yummy high tea we just had. but it was just a tiny little stand that was closed and a bunch of fast food booths. i could just go to the st. lawrence market since it's about 10 minutes from my work...but it's also a very cold time to have to walk that far. maybe in the summer!

ohh and before i go, here is my new konadicure for the week:

it was a coat of nicole by opi in 'you're a star', a coat of sally hansen's 'starry, starry flight', and finished off the tips with rimmel's lasting finish pro in 'marine blue'; and for the konad, used plate m71. not one of my best works, but i was on a time budget. it'll have to do until next week!

11.05.11

well, the past week or so have been kind of hard for me to get through. i got some bad news about my dad and his illness and i was pretty much a giant wreck for days. alone in the shower or as i'm about to fall asleep - basically any time when i've been left alone with my thoughts and with nothing else to distract me, i would dissolve into tears, i felt like i was drowning in sadness, in helplessness. it's been really rough, harder than anything i have ever faced. i mean, i guess i knew it would come down to this, but you never really think about it and when someone finally tells you that hey, that moment is approaching, well, you're never really ready to hear that. or at least i wasn't anyway. and with the exception of r.a.y. (who have been absolutely amazing and super supportive and full of love and i am so thankful and grateful for my friends), i haven't told anyone else about it. i'm just going to end up breaking down and i'm not ready to go there, to examine my feelings and what i'm going to do. mostly i've been hiding in bsb and nick carter's music or losing myself in a really good fantasy novel. i finally got around to reading cassandra clare's city of fallen angel, and it is so good so far! i'm not trying to avoid it, but i can't just sit there and cry all day either. this is the only way to keep myself surviving.
the only bright light in the last few week was thursday. getting to spend the day with nick carter, being stupidly excited and 16 years old again. for those hours during the vip, and hanging with the new nick carter friends i met through nick, during the concert...it was like all my burden and troubles were lifted away. i could be happy. of course it would be nick who could fully and totally take away my troubles, the pain, the sadness. even if for only those few moments. but at that moment, nothing else existed except me and him and the music. and it was bliss.
it's starting to creep back on me, the sadness, the helplessness. but i guess that in a way, i'm lucky too. not many people know that the people they love could be gone in the next second, or hour, or days, or weeks. some people don't get the chance to say the things they need to say or do the things they meant to do for that person because they think that they have time, they can do it tomorrow, later. and when that person is gone, they're filled with regret of the things they should have said, should have done. as hard and as bleak as everything is right now, i have the chance to say those last things that needs to be said and to do the last things that needs to be done before they have to leave. it's kind of a sucky situation, but at least when the time comes, i won't have any regrets and i guess that that is something.

10.25.11

rogers you are f***ing morons. i said to cancel just my internet. not my freaking tv too. how is it possible that you are so stupid that you cannot do the simplest things right?
calling now to look into this and i told her that i just want to make sure that i only want my internet to be cut and not my tv and she's like oh yes i see that cable will be disconnected for you in november, that's not a problem and i can take your payment now or you can go to a store. um. where in "i want to keep my cable" did that sound like "cut my cable"?
so freaking mad. i hate dealing with rogers. every single freaking time they always f*** it up in one way or another.

10.24.11

new week = new nails

. totally fun to do with the sparkly tips. of course i have fun with anything that sparkles, it's a fault.
watching american horror stories now. i really do not think that this is a good idea. i am going to have nightmares, but i can't stop watching it. it's like one of those things where you want to not watch but you have to, but it's scary as shit. too early to tell exactly how scary it is. but the dog is barking at nothing right now and that is never a good sign.
and it's by brad fulchuk and ryan murphy too. creators of glee. how can they make something so creepy when they also made something so happy and funny????

10.21.11

what a week. not sure if the rainy days have been a factor, but this week has been a tough one. very hard to stay positive this week. finishing it out with my csi:ny and blue bloods and then i'm just going to disappear into a bag of chocolates and a good book! i plan on finishing the week out on a positive note.

10.20.11

i was saying how i want the new kobo vox yesterday; my kobo decides to break

on me today. i think maybe i killed it, cause it looks like the screen is cracked, but it's not even like i threw it down somewhere hard or anything. so i don't know how this happened! i'm so upset with myself and also with my kobo. especially since i was really looking forward on starting on les miserables on my kobo; wanted to finish it before the movie came out! now that will have to wait until i can replace it.

10.19.11 12am
night and day view from my balcony

10.18.11

donnie w.o.w. : "never underesTimate you! never sell yOu short! be realistic. be rational. be sensible. but never ever Doubt who you Are & what You can do!" need to remember this. feeling so overwhelmed lately and wondering what the hell i was thinking and why i thought i could ever do this job. sometimes i just feel so inadequate.

10.16.11
10:09pm

omg the boys just announced that they are going to europe for the nkotbsb 2012 tour!! which i know we knew this, but it became official and all the boys started going crazy on twitter about it and then i got all excited about it in the middle of watching csi:miami. so much so that i stopped paying attention for a while! but eeep! i have chills and all the happy memories are coming back to me! i wish i could go to europe and take in another show! or two or three :D ! i think if things were better at home with my dad, i wouldn't be able to stop myself from going!
but i'm glad i at least got the chance to see them once when they came to toronto. and maybe (wishful thinking) they'll come back to north america. but i'm glad for the fans in europe who will now get a chance to experience the amazingness of the nine boys! it will be an amazing tour and i want to see and hear all about the surprises from the guys :)
omg. i am going to wake up to 50 million messages from the boys again. i've kinda missed waking up to messages of love and happy tour times from the boys!

10.16.11

was too bothered by the one i did last night, so this morning i did a second

coat of the same konad, but using a more solid opi pink colour. it turned out much better.
it's funny how now that i have discovered konad, i can't do just plain nails any more. i have to keep playing with them.

10.15.11

tried my hand at water marbling today. that did not go so well. i experimented with it last night and it seemed to be ok, but then as soon as i tried it on my nails, that did not go so well. i need more time to do this and more patience and definitely a lot more practice i think.
i tried it twice, once with pink

which ended up being a total mess and tried it a second time with the blues which ended up being too dark to tell that it was marbled. i ended up just doing them plain in brilliant sky by orly with a pearly translucent white konad on them.

the picture makes it look green, but it's more of an oceany blue/green. plus you can't really see the konad on them, but i've been being a little flashy with my nails lately, so i'll just scale back a little this week. thinking of going all out for my halloween themed nails though. that'll be fun to do :)

10.14.11

finally finished reading the adventures of tom sawyer last night. that was a tough one to get through - i didn't enjoy the way it was written, but i was too determined to finish it to give up. though i will admit that i'm going to be skipping the adventures of huckleberry finn.

10.12.11

went on a bike tour

on monday for the long weekend with pcs in niagara. it was another gorgeous summer like day and perfect for a day's worth of riding. my legs and butt are still sore from it though. but it was absolutely gorgeous, a few patches we biked through, the tree leaves were turning colours and on a few roads, there were hardly any cars and we had the whole road to ourselves! it made me think of stand by me for some reason.

it was actually a biking wine tour, and we got to visit a few different wine yards. it was self guided. and unbeknownst to us at first, there was also free wine tastings

- which is funny because i can't drink wine. i've tried. tried white and reds and i just have not been able to take to the taste of it. even ice wine i'm not a fan of. though i will say that peller estate's ice wine is so good. and also ended up really liking a rose from riverview. i was really only there for the biking. though i also ended up buying some new cooking sauces from kurt's or maybe keiths?? a mango lime sauce and an ice peach jelly.
after the bike tour, we walked around town a little so that s could find some pumpkin fudge. we found the pumpkin fudge and also ice wine fudge(!!), which ended up being so yummy and i ended up getting a slice of it. we stopped for cow's ice cream before we headed back home in time for dinner. which i soon found out, when i stuck my hand in to get my keys and realized that i had stupidly left my bag in the trunk for the day...and i didn't realize that i had also left chocolate in the bag...and the chocolate obviously melted on this gorgeous summer like day...and my house keys got coated in melted chocolate. it was not pretty. it got all ruined

.
all in all, despite the chocolate incident and the intense pain (seriously, it has been so intense that the first night i kept waking up every few hours from the pain. ended up taking two advils to make the pain go away just so i could sleep) it was a lot of fun. i haven't been on a bike since i was a kid and thankfully (like they say) you never forget how to ride a bike. i would totally love to go again. we're going to have to find a way to make the seats more comfortable though.

10.09.11

went back to jungle cat world yesterday with rayj and baby s. it was such a nice summer like day! in october! perfect for going out to see our friends. mostly just serge

(who is more my little friend) and eeyore

the donkey (though he is more of r and a's buddy) :D i think if i could somehow train and tame a tiger, and if it were legal, i would definitely have a tiger for a pet.
serge's all grown up now! the last time we saw him, he was still a little baby and now he's so big! definitely cannot just hold him in our arms anymore. though we did see a new baby tiger near the back with a baby panther. or maybe it was a cougar. i don't remember. but as we walked up to her, she tried to growl at it, but it was such a baby growl that it was more adorable than it was scary. baby s was entirely adorable wanting to give the tiger a fist bump. she had to settle for bumping us instead. but seeing serge all grown up now, i feel like a proud parent! i know i sound stupid, but still.
we also tried to track down our taylor lautner lama

god. he keeps running away from us though. not entirely sure why. and while we were looking at the monkeys, one of the zoo people came out and we got to feed a chance to feed one of their lemurs

!! he was so cute!
we spent most of our day hanging out with eeyore though. we took apples from the rabbits and fed them to eeyore who very much liked it. eeyore bit a goose who was trying to steal his apple and a canadian geese bit a who had all the apples. probably the best moment of the day.
we also spent a considerable amount of time being stupid in the playground.

it was an entirely fun day! so glad we went back and so glad that the day was so nice! can't wait till we get to go back!

10.05.11

on my way to work yesterday, i caught a glimpse of son of neptune by rick riordan in the window display at chapters. it's the second book in the heroes of olympus series and i have been waiting for forever for this book to come out. i could not put it down. last night i read until one in the morning and then i had to put it down all day until dinner time tonight.
i finished it and was so disappointed when i got to the end. not because it was a bad book but because i thought there would be more! i have to wait for another year now to see percy reunited with his camp again. another year before i find out how the two camps get along. another year before i get to know what the quest is. to know what happens next!!
but this like all of rick riordan's book was an amazing read. the quests they are sent on are always full of adventure, which i guess you would expect from a quest of demigods fighting various monsters trying to do the impossible with a limited amount of time to do it. and percy always ends up having the best (and often most humourous) banterings with the gods. especially with ares/mars. and i always love it when the underdogs end up being victorious. the limitlessness (is this a word?) of what the demigods can do always ends up astounding me and makes me wish i was a demigod and possessed some of those powers too! i would totally want to have percy's powers. the ability to control water and to breathe under water, to be healed by water, that would be the freaking coolest thing in the world.
it's a little like how every time i re-read harry potter, i wish i went to hogwarts or when i re-read the princess diaries series, i still think that some distant relative is going to come and tell me that i'm actually a royal. *sigh* i can still hope on that last one. though i think i'd rather be a demigod than a princess.

10.02.11

sabrina: that was your wife i saw the other day, wasn't it?
danny: yeah, why?
sabrina: let me ask you something. what does she got that i don't have?
danny: me.

-after hours

danny reagan

= <3

10.01.11

went to c

today with r.a. and j. it was a perfect fall day to spend out in the corn maze. though admittedly, we took a few short cuts :D found a pig that we made friends with and got scared away by a pack of turkeys ready to take us out. we roamed around in the pumpkin patch and took two pumpkin brothers home with us.

09.30.11

another friday night spent watching csi:ny and followed by blue bloods. great episode of blue bloods tonight. pissed off danny is fun to watch! and of course, i was doing my nails

. this may become a friday night tradition so long as my shows are running their season.

09.25.11

it's been a busy while, or it feels like it anyway. though i feel like i haven't done much...i think it just feels busy because of work. but obviously i made time for a new konadicure

. i always have time to do my nails. and now that i got my order of new nail plates, i'll have fun the next little while playing with new designs and colours. this one is plainer than i wanted it to be, but i've been eyeing this design for awhile. i want to do a few plain ones to see how they look before i get all into the fun mixing and matching bits. i think maybe next week i'll play around with the polka dots design. that could be a cute one to play around with. we'll see.
this week has been exciting though, but only to me. everyone else would probably think i'm crazy to be excited over this, but all my tv shows are back :D so far criminal minds and csi:ny have been the best premieres so far! i'm sure cm is only so good to me cause aj cook and paget brewster are back. but it was a really good story line!
also catching up on my blue bloods on dvd. it's funny to me that danny reagan is so like donnie wahlberg - he's such a bad ass with the biggest heart. blue bloods is now in my top 5 favourite tv shows, bumping off csi. and it has nothing to do with donnie wahlberg either, i swear. the stories are just so good, especially with the family. it's refreshing to see a show about a family who are so close and loving and FUNCTIONAL and good and have good values and morals, when tv now is so opposite. i don't know. maybe it's just me. but it is a really good show.

in other news...found out tonight that my older cousin is doing the run for the cure on behalf of my dad next sunday. i'm very proud of him. hopefully we'll get to go downtown to see him do the run and cheer him on!

09.24.11

frank

reagan: "life isn't fair; but you can be"

**i know this is from the wrong episode, but i couldn't find the right one, short of watching the actual episode and taking the picture of it myself! which i am too lazy to do**

09.05.11

well. finished 'the abandoned' last night in between watching the original xmen cartoon, devouring a tub of honey dew ice cream and of course, doing my nails

!
the book felt shorter than i thought it was, but then it's supposed to be a prequel to her new graveyard queen series and plus i spent pretty much the whole day reading, so who knows? it's actually a little creepy reading it the middle of the night because it's set in a mental hospital and then when one of her patients die, ree starts to feel something unnatural following her. which doesn't sound all that creepy and is fine to read about in day time when there is supposed to be life happening all around you. but at night, when the world is supposedly asleep, it just makes it spookier especially when your upstairs neighbour decides it would be funny to suddenly start hammering in the middle of the night. and then you too feel a chill on your neck and you're also trying to convince yourself that it's just the a/c too. like ree tried to convince herself.
overall, it was a good read. i may have to get into the series after i finish my fall project. for now, it's on to 'the adventures of tom sawyer'. technically it should be 'the adventures of huckleberry finn' first, alphabetically speaking, but then i the first few pages of the author's note mentioned stuff that happened in tom sawyer so i figured it be best to start with tom sawyer.

09.04.11

think it's time to get back to my kobo and finish all the ebooks there before buying any more books (physical copies or otherwise)... i'll start at A & work myself to the very end. there's at least 140 books in there that i have yet to read. this will be my fall project. you know, considering i have no more school and plenty of time now to read! :)
so starting off with 'the abandoned' by amanda stevens.

08.31.11

nick is here today with a small intimate show and it is breaking my heart that i can't go. it was always the plan with r (now that i'm old enough to do what i want) that whenever nick came back to t.o. for his solo shows, i would be there and he would somehow just magically fall in love with me. which, ok, the whole falling in love with me was probably never going to happen (not that i'm not still hoping that one day it'll happen - a girl can dream), but i wanted to be able to see him on his own, live, because he is so freaking amazing. who knew that life and budgets would come between us?
is it a sign of maturity that i'm not trying to sell an arm and a leg just to go and see nick? knowing that i have other responsibilities now? maybe.
but it still hurts my heart to know that he is here, HERE in toronto finally and i'm not going to be there. :( but he said he would be doing more stuff here in november, so i can have that to look forward to. plus i did just see him when he was here early august for the cd signing. and i can still see the live streaming at 8pm. i'll just have to be content with that.
spending my day listening to nick today.

08.30.11

stuck on the ttc on my way home. it was ok though, it gave me a chance to finally finish 'one day' by david nicholls. of course what should have taken me about a half hour to finish ended up taking me a whole hour to read because i kept tearing up during the last few chapters and i had to stop reading and do something else before i could continue to read again.
it was a really good book, not a 'can't put the book down' kind of good, but good in a simple, beautiful way. i liked following the two characters throughout the years to see how their lives change and mingle, how while one person is going through the ups, the other is going through the downs and vice versa, how they ended up finding each other again and to find a happiness that they could only have when they were with each other.
it makes me think of soul mates and how there is one person out there for each of us and they might not be perfect and they may have had their problems, but for those two people, it doesn't matter to them. how that person could be someone you have known almost all your life. maybe i'm being too optimistic, but i want it to be true anyway.

08.29.11

went ziplining with rayj over the weekend and it was absolutely terrifying. at one point, when we had to climb up the giant tree, i almost did burst into tears. it was absolutely terrifying for me being so terrified of heights and all.
my thoughts are still mixed on it. i feel like if it was more ziplining, i would have eventually ended up enjoying it once i got used to climbing up the giant tree. the guide had to push me off before i actually went down, but it wasn't as scary as i thought it would be and i think if we had done it a few more times, i'd have actually really liked it. better than being on a roller coaster, for sure! but after that one time down, they let us go and it was all just climbing up trees and walking on a rope or on planks of wood that kept swinging. it was all obstacles and i did not like it at all. two of them killed me, one was the one where you had to walk the length of a rope, but it was at least 20 ft and the other one you had to walk along these blanks of wood that had been spaced far apart so you couldn't really just walk across it and i was just hanging on for dear life and trying to balance. which i know that i'm harnessed and all, but seriously if i fell, chances are that i would have given up and would have had to be rescued. but then we found out in the end from one of the trainers that you were supposed to LEAP across to the next wooden plank. i almost dropped right there. i can barely put one foot in front of the other and you want me to LEAP from one platform to the next?? yeah. no. not going to happen. i don't know if i have ever been more terrified. my legs still felt like jello as i got into bed that night.
my whole thing this year with facing my fears isn't exactly working out. i even wore my bsb tshirt to try to invoke some of the boy's spirit of adventure, but that did nothing. but at least i did it and i can say that i tried after much persuasion. i would never do it again, but i think that it should count for something.

08.27.11

went to the cne with rayj yesterday after work, this year's annual cne food eating contest was much shorter (thankfully) then previous years due to time constraints. we started off with the deep fried butter balls

and cherry aid. we had 10 seconds to finish our share. i don;t remember who won, but it definitely was not me. i suck entirely at these food eating contest things. the year before last, we did fudge and r still kicked my ass and i LOVE fudge and she HATES it. anyway. i have to say though that the butter balls ended up tasting better than the name sounds. it actually reminds me of those chinese batter ball things that you get at pacific mall. just all soaked into oil.
we had to walk around a bit after to recuperate from the oil. we saw some guy get shot out of a giant canon and then ended back up at the farm to see our friends, the alpacas

. they also had miniature colts

this year and the baby mini colt shares the same birthday as me!
they also had the cutest lambs

. he was trying to get up and couldn't quite do it. it took a lot of effort, when he finally got up it galloped awkwardly to his mom, so adorable!
after the farm we decided that it was time to try the krispy kreme burger

. since i refused, a and i got the alternative - the behemoth (basically two grilled cheese sandwich sandwiching a giant burger). and r who's a veggie went with the breakfast (grilled cheese sandwich with an egg - which you wouldn't think would be that gross but it was soaking in oil. and there was also a lot of egg). we had the ems

on standby. i think we decided that y won this round. she had the krispy kreme burger with the egg and the bacon. but it was decided that it was pretty damn gross and definitely not to be tried again. i'm just going to take their words for it.
so all in all it was a productive cne day. also a rather productive day generally, my hands have also been itching to do something creative all this week and i really never had the time. last night after i got home, i just sat there and made a few pairs of earrings.
some of them i'm really excited about, like the angel

one. it makes me think of nick because of the green being nick's favourite colour and cause i think he is an angel. and the one with the hearts

. i was listening to shape of my heart when i made those ones. and also the chandeliers

. that one is one of my favourites because i made everything by myself, minus the beads, of course. but the all the other parts of the earrings, like the chandelier tiers were all made by me. it turned out pretty well. but then (and see i fully believe that it's because i wasn't listening to bsb when i made this one, because usually when i'm listening to the backstreet boys the best of me comes out) the blue

one i don't think worked. i had the concept in my head but the end result wasn't what i thought it would be. i may need to disassemble that and re-do it.
but anyway, i have to run to go to a family dinner bbq now. which sucks because i'm in the middle of doing my nails. but excited because i haven't seen j in forever, with her in school in montreal and all. ok, gotta go!

08.21.11

did my nails

while watching ip man 2 with my daddy tonight.
nice, quiet sunday night before work tomorrow!
not entirely sure i like these. i was thinking of dorothy's red shoes when i was doing my nails because of the red polish i was using, but then i added the roses and that changed everything. i don't know, may need to revisit this one. or i could get the plate with the shoes and re-do this...

08.20.11

my sister came to visit with my nephew today. he got a haircut

and is super cute.
he was being a little fussy and moody

today, but got better later on in the day, i love having my nephew around! today he was preoccupied with trying to eat my whole can of pringles

. and throwing everything he could get his hands on around. he did end up breaking a lid for a tea pot and slamming his head into the dining table and somehow the tv...

08.18.11

"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it." -Mary Engelbreit

08.17.11

met with pcs today to arrange a time to do a day time bike tour through niagara, the idea stared because s wanted to do a winery bike tour with one of those coupon places. but because no one was buying it from that company, we decided that maybe we should do our own tour through niagara, so we've set the date for october 1st. hopefully it'll still be nice and cool then so it won't kill us, biking in the summer heat or in freezing wintery temperature. i'm kinda hoping there'll still be autumn leaves up so that it'll be super pretty with all the colours, doubtful, but one can hope...we decided not to do a wine tour because none of us like wine. so we're thinking of doing a shopping bike tour because well, we're girls and who doesn't like shopping? i think we were only joking though...
i'm really excited about this day trip! i haven't ridden a bike in so long and i'm really looking forward to getting back into riding. of course, my dad just had to sell my bike before we moved, so now it looks like i'll have to rent a bike. though to be fair, even if he didn't sell it, i still wouldn't have used it, so it would have just been sitting there. better that some kid is out there using my bike instead of sitting in the garage collecting dust and cobwebs.

08.16.11

my donnie wahlberg words of wisdom for today: "You should spend time spreading LOVE! With LOVE you can change lives! And one of the lives you will almost certainly change- is your own!"

08.15.11

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away." - Maya Angelou
another one of my favourite

quotes.

08.14.11

finished reading 'the help' by kathryn stockett today and what an amazing amazing novel! it was a 'could not put it down, reading until 2 in the morning' good!
the author gave an amazing voice to the three main characters and they are such strong and brave women. proves that you can do anything if you believe enough in yourself and put the work into achieving your dreams, your goals - even when everyone else is against you and what you have to say. there were funny parts and parts that unexpectedly put tears in my eyes!
i am dying to go and see the movie now and hopefully it'll be as good as the book!
on to 'one day' by david nicholls. so far it's been a good read, but not a can't put this down kind of read. at least not yet anyway.

08.13.11

had dinner at briscola trattoria, this cute italian restaurant on college, with pc&friends. the food was so good, i had an eggplant parmigiana and it was delicious. basically, it was stuffed eggplant. i have no idea what was in there apart from some type of cheese, but it was very very good. it was too bad that we were running late for a show, because i bet dessert would have been so good! but we had to dash to make it in time for a show at the comedy bar, which ended up being really funny! it was kind of like 'whose line is it anyway?' and it was as funny as that show. one of the guys from video on trial was there, but he wasn't really funny. then again, he wasn't really funny on video on trial so...but there was a tall blond guy from the other team who was hilarious! i really enjoyed the show. the comedy bar was better than the show we went to see at second city. it was all improve, but the show at comedy bar was actually funny.
after the show we went out for dessert and ended up going to menchie's. it is my new favourite frozen yogurt place. you can choose from about 10 different flavours of frozen yogurt (i had the red velvet, mocha, and mango flavours) and choose to add any topping you want. there were so many different toppings you could add from sprinkles to chocolate chips to assorted chopped nuts. and you could add fruits and syrups and candy!! but my favourite were these something balls, i forgot what they're called, but it's these fruit flavoured balls that when you bite into them, they explode with that fruit flavour. the best combination is the lychee whatever balls with the mango frozen yogurt.
i thought i was bad (i spent $8 on my frozen yogurt), but apparently, i wasn't the worst (p's sister spent $11). that place is bad for people like me, i just wanted to get every flavour and add every topping there!
this has definitely turned out to be a pretty good week!

08.12.11

had dinner with rays tonight at o&b. it was funny, y brought s and she bit into a lemon and she was so cute because she looked like she wanted to cry at first but because the rest of us were giggling and pointing at how cute she was, she put on the fakest smile and tried to pretend like she really did like the lemon and pretended to keep eating it until she decided it was time to give it back to her dad.

08.10.11

last night as i was falling asleep, i realized something. the first time that i ever ran into nick carter at the eaton centre, but was too nervous to even say hello to him, it was on 09.08 of 2005.
yesterday when i met nick carter and was cool as a cucumber, it was 08.09.
i don't know why it matters, i just thought it was cool as i was drifting off into dreams of nick.

08.09.11

today is going down as the best day of my life. seriously. i'm not joking. because today is the day that i finally got to come face to face with my forever love

.
when i found out i got the wristbands to go, super thanks times a million to a, i was hyperventilating, couldn't believe that after all these years, i was actually going to see and meet nick carter without the ropes and the distance. he was going to be right there.
at first i was so nervous, i had butterflies going crazy fluttering in my stomach, but strangely, as i got closer and closer to nick carter, the butterflies subsided and i was just calm and happy, as if greeting a friend i've known forever.
i was a little worried because some of the girls coming out were not very happy at all. and some girl there was calling nick a douche and i was worried that nick carter wouldn't be the same nick carter that i had set him up to be in my mind.
but when it was my turn, he came up and hugged me

and i whispered into him that i was so glad to finally get a chance to meet him and he smiled at me and thanked me for coming and my heart just melted. of all the smiles, nick carter has the nicest smile anyone could ever have. and he is so hug-able, plus he had a little scruff on his face and you could feel it as he came to hug you. and he THANKED me for being there!!
as he was signing my cd

, i thanked him for his music and told how much i love his music and he smiled up at me once again and said thanks again, called me darling and pulled me in for another hug.
he was so super nice and so friendly, and i couldn't believe that i just came face to face with the man that i have been in love with since i was in grade eight. i was 13 years old. i'm now 28. he's still as amazing to me now as he was when i first glimpsed him in the pages of bop magazine. and now having met him, i love him even more.
i will never ever forget this day for as long as i live. i could be 90 and with alzheimers and i will always remember this day.
i have that stupid grin on my face again.

08.08.11

and so today the nkotbsb tour came to an end and through twitter anyway, it sounded like last night's show was full of pranks from the boys on both sides. i will need to find time to look these videos up on youtube!
it makes me kind of sad that this has ended. everyone has been saying thank you to nkotb and bsb on twitter and reading some of the messages left for the boys this morning made me teary eyed. it's like an end of a relationship. though they might get back to go to europe or something - there seems to be hints that this is not the end or goodbye.
but at least for north america, there is no more nkotbsb. i think. i hope i'm wrong. but it feels like if they do get back together, it will take away how special this summer was. i'm torn between wanting the nine boys to get back together again to make a full nkotbsb album and them not getting back together. i can't decide.
it's insane to me how well the two of them got along, and not only that but how amazing they sound together. it's like they were always meant to be one band.
if i didn't already have plans with rayj to celebrate my belated bday day, i think i might not have been able to stop myself from going to that concert! but yesterday was super fun - we went horseback riding

! i haven't been horseback riding for so long and totally miss it, even though i am absolutely terrified. but i remember how we used to go horseback riding once every summer with my family and my dad's friend's families. i always ended up loving it. if i had the money, i would move to the country and buy a horse farm and spend the rest of my life riding horses and reading on the porch!
so r came to pick me up and we drove with the windows down and blaring bsb at top volume. some people gave us double stares and other people smiled at us indulgently as old school bsb was pounding out at them! i loved it!! :D and then we

got to the farm, everybody (backstreet's back) blasting away :D, at first we were so terrified

of the horses, except for j - he was all fine and dandy with the horses. we eventually got used to our horses when we had to help comb them and saddle

them up, and i think it was a relief for r and i when we both got the smaller horses. this ended up being a good thing because after the horseback lessons, the crazy woman made us JUMP OFF the horses!! i could not for the life of me get myself to jump off. my trainer had to literally push me off the horse for me to finally get off. i can't even imagine jumping off of one of the bigger horses! are you kidding me?? the woman was like, "it's fine, you'll be fine! just jump! how did you get on your horse in the first place?" and i wanted to scream at her that we were allowed to use a stepping stool to get on our horses!!
so much for facing my fears.
but after that we went to get kawartha ice cream and it was so good. i don't know why their ice cream is so good, but it was! i had the muskoka mocha and there were little chocolate fishies in my ice cream! it was so cute. then afterwards, after reminiscing over our past game nights that we've done and how we haven't done a game night for some time now, we ended up at 'a place for us' this fob bubble tea place because they have games that you can borrow and play. we started with truth or dare jenga but that got boring so we moved on to cards since there wasn't really anything else there that we wanted or knew how to play.
it was definitely one of the best days!

08.04.11

with the end of the nkotbsb tour drawing to an end, i find myself wanting to take a last minute trip to hamilton to go see the boys one last time before it all ends.
i think i want to go so much because the first time i didn't appreciate nkotb, not having been a fan before the toronto concert. but since then, i've familiarized myself with their songs and with the personalities of the boys, and i want to be able to go again and this time enjoy the concert knowing who is who and knowing what song and the lyrics to what they're singing.
it probably won't happen. but everyone telling me that i shouldn't do it because i should be the good girl and save my money is just making me want to rebel and go. i wouldn't have anyone to go with, but i don't really mind doing things or going places on my own. i think it'll come down to if i feel like it on the day of.
though honestly, i know it's not going to happen since i wouldn't be able to get home in time to take care of my dad before he goes to sleep...so it's definitely not going to happen. but i wish i wish SO much that i could go to the last two concerts, everyone's do the right thing be freaking damned! it is going to be an amazing last two concerts. i just know it.

08.01.11

bought some new beads yesterday to play with. made these ones

today.

07.31.11

spent the day with cpr for my belated bday day. we went to make earrings at inspired by beads. it was so much fun!
our teacher carla

was so funny and entertained us as she taught us how to make chandelier earrings

! i am so excited that i now actually know how to properly make earrings

, instead of just doing what i wanted to do to make it look like it was professionally made. i think we did an amazing job on the earrings

!
then we came back, cooked dinner and p and c slept over. we had an amazing evening cooking dinner together and then just talking and doing our nails together. it was a fun day :)

07.25.11

went on break with y today and didn't have anywhere to go, we ended up wandering into toys toys toys and we could't believe our eyes when we found the backstreet boys

.
a backstreet boys PUZZLE! y and i laughed so hard for so long! there was a bsb puzzle!! i think it's a mark of my maturity that i didn't run to buy it and thinking i would have to have to have to have it!
on our way back a cute kentucky boy stopped us for directions. it's really sad how a cute boy with an accent can reduce y and i into giggling little things.

07.23.11

"In life we make decisions that effect the outcome of how we live.... When someone else makes that decision that's a tragedy" - jonathan r knight

07.22.11

my dad is so upset that i've waited until now that he can't eat to start experimenting with cooking. i'm kinda sad too that i waited until now to try and cook and now he can't try what i've been cooking.
today i made the baked coconut shrimp from brokeass gourmet. it was really good...except i forgot to grease the sheets and the coconut on one side got stuck to the sheet. i'm going to have to remember to grease the sheets next time i try this recipe again! but otherwise, it turned out really well. who knew honey and shrimps went together so well?
learning about the world of marinating.

07.17.11

my donnie wahlberg words of wisdom for today: "Today! We can't have it all... But we can all have LOVE!"

07.16.11

fell today and almost killed myself. i was helping my dad put away the trolley cart and you're supposed to step on this bar that makes the cart fold in half. except i didn't know that the stupid bottom of the cart folds up, so i stepped on the bar and pushed down on the handle. the cart flew out from under my feet in one direction, i flew and hit the floor in the opposite direction and slammed my one knee down hard and my other ankle somewhere else.
i now have the biggest bruise forming on my knee.
i don't know how i have a penchant for bruising the same knee.

07.15.11

just came home from watching harry potter the final installment and i have to say that i am so disappointed. maybe i had my expectations too high, because the first half of deathly hallows was so freaking good. they pretty much followed the book word for word and i was so excited.
there were definitely some good parts, like snape's death. the "always" scene between him and dumbledore put tears in my eyes. but i'm glad that they did a good job on it. i would have been so mad if they messed that one up.
i also loved mcgonagall and her fight with snape, that was pretty freaking cool and when she awoke all the statues in hogwarts to defend the castle and her giggling to mrs. weasley about it afterwards.
i'm glad neville got his moment with killing nagini and blowing up the bridge.
and helena bonham carter playing hermione was absolutely brilliant.
and super glad they kept mrs. weasley's "not my daughter, you bitch!". that was the part i was worrying most that they would take away.
but the whole end scenes with harry was terrible! the whole death scene - both harry's and voldemort's, the fight scene with voldemort, the fight scene with the school, the conversation between harry and dumbledore. the whole point of jk rowling writing those scenes were totally missed.
the kiss scene with ron and hermione was terrible! and i'm so upset that they missed the whole thing with percy - though i guess it was expected considering they never touched upon the fight between him and his family. and also with fred's death and the house-elves!
they took away all the emotions, the reason why book 7 was so good, they didn't answer any of the questions that the previous movies have set up and that the books have set up. that is why the books were so good! you find out everything and the reason why things were the way they were written. they took away the characters, i feel like.
it was more of a disappointment because david yates had been doing such a good job with the final movies, and this just did not live up to his previous work. of course, there were other parts in the other movies that also made no sense (eg the burning of the burrow in HBP), but this being the final movie, and with the first installment being so good, this was a total and complete disappointment. it's the final movie!! and it was ruined.

p and i are blaming this on r. it seems that the two times he came with us to see harry potter, both times the movie sucked beyond sucking. he came to see POA with us and POA ended up being horrible! and he came with us to watch DHpt2 and that also ended up sucking majorly.
now that i've seen the last installment and it was such a let down, re-reading the series again.

07.13.11

unpacking sometimes feels like christmas. found my bsb bk action figures

.
haha i remember when i used to make r come with me after school to bk to get the stupid kids meal AND a regular meal just so i could get the action figure AND the for the fans cd and video.
i can't eat bk any more. but i have all five guys and all three cds and the video! all the pain was worth it.
all the stupid messed up things i do for the boys...

07.12.11

spent my day today hanging out with r and timmy's, walking e up on the rooftop garden. he chased some people and was barking at them. it made me laugh!
got bitten like crazy by mosquitoes up there though. that was less fun.
it was a good day. well...it ended up being a good day.

07.11.11

"grief, it seemed, drove voldemort out ... though, dumbledore, of course, would have said that it was love ..." hp7, ch 24, pg 387
almost finished the book. trying to get to the end before the movie comes out! it might be a losing battle.

07.10.11

i finally got my internet back! we're moved in and pretty much everything has been unpacked. just my room now. that's going rather slowly. and now that i have my internet back, i expect that it'll go even slower.
the new place has been great so far. except for the first night when i nearly fell out of my bed...i have a day bed, which is what i used to sleep in at the old place and it was by the wall so i was used to squishing myself as far back into the wall as i could go so that i wouldn't fall out of bed. but now that i have an actual bed in my room, and not used to it being in the middle of the room, i was shifting as far back as i could go and then i almost fell out of it. that was unpleasant.
also it sucks when you forget something in the car and the garage is no longer just outside. and if you were like me, and in your pj's, you gotta change out of them, go down 20 something floors, find your parking space, go all the way back and all the way back up the elevator and back into your pj's.
but other than that, i love it! no more mowing the lawn, no more shoveling the snow in the winter. no more waking up at the crack of dawn during vacation to take out the garbage. plus, i love having breakfast on the balcony. kinda scary with my intense fear of heights, but i'm trying to conquer my fears, so i'm having breakfast on the balcony sometimes on my weekends. besides, it is so nice outside and soon winter's going to be here and i won't be able to enjoy the balcony. and once we have it all cleaned and set up, i want to be able to lounge outside and read on a nice summer day! i have always wanted to do that but never did at the old house because we were so close by to the lake and there were always giant bugs flying or creepy crawling around! but now i don't have those problems anymore, so yay!

07.03.11

12am, moving day later today. taking apart the bed while listening to bsb. feels like old times, doing homework, pulling an all-nighter, my only company is bsb signing to me.
my last post in this house. gotta finish taking apart the bed and get some sleep before it gets too late.
good night!

07.01.11

HAPPY CANADA DAY!
stress meter definitely at an all time high! moving in two days and my room looks like a tornado just went through it. i do not know how i am going to get everything packed in time.
why was i so stupid and let myself procrastinate???

06.29.11

"be the change you want to see in the world" - mahatma gandhi
one of my favourite quotes.
also this one: "no one can make you feel inferior without your consent." - eleanor roosevelt

06.28.11

since the nkotbsb concert, there has been two positives in my life.
1. is the discovery of nkotb with this whole new world with their music and all their various solo music. and i have to say that i am a fan. they're like bsb, but not as good as bsb because no one will ever be as good as bsb to me. but i really like their music and their voices. and they are so funny. i was searching on youtube for appearances and stuff on them and i found these fan videos of their funny moments and they're really really funny! and i've been catching up on the nkotbsb tv appearances that i've been missing and the nine boys are hilarious! i love it! they just fully crack me up.
2. donnie wahlberg's twitter. every day he has something motivational to say. something inspiring. sometimes it's like he can read my mind and my moods and he says the things that i need to hear.
today's words of wisdom from donnie wahlberg: "Today! Fear + Pressure + Stress simply remind us that we're alive! Joy + Laughter + Happiness simply remind us to keep on living! Simple."

06.27.11

met up with pcs for our after work coffee date today. it was great and kind of a needed break from all the packing and cooking and worrying and stressing. and we got a fairy tale out of it. well, as close to one as we can get in this life. but it was like my light at the end of the tunnel. some needed hope.

06.25.11

celebrated a's birthday by sending him on a scavenger hunt and it turns out that he absolutely SUCKS at it! we thought that he would be so good and get the clues right away, but it turns out that he kinda sucks!! :P waited forever before he came and found me and even then, he looked RIGHT AT ME and still didn't see me. separately, r and i witnessed him looking right at us and not even see us. *shakes head*
but it was a fun night! and dinner was good, good times at fran's! and then on our way to desserts, we chased a all around dt, silly stringing him. he was not so happy with that, but we were satisfied.

06.12.11

ok, so finally found the song that i liked from nkotb, "tonight". i don't know why i like it so much, but i do. i love the melody of it. so i have the songs from the concert downloaded and now i've been listening to the concert songs on repeat pretending like i'm back at the acc, but it really isn't the same.
i so wish that i could clone little versions of the nine boys and make them perform for me. i'd put them into a little box and then i could take them everywhere with me and they could sing to me every day and night.
i'm procrastinating again. i should be packing my room, but i've been doing everything and anything i can but pack. it shouldn't be so hard, but i have so much books that i'm kinda sick of packing. i keep thinking that i'm done packing up the books and then i find more. plus i can't stop buying more books, and that doesn't help. i know i have a kobo, but it's not like having a real book in your hands and watching your progress with the book, or being able to skip a few pages...i like my kobo, but it's not a real book.
*sigh* ok, really need to stop and get back to packing. i was hoping that listening to nkotbsb would at least entertain me, but then i end up on tne internet looking for more nkotb songs or looking for lyrics. i'm useless sometimes.

06.11.11

reading a new book today and made me actually laugh out loud when i read the thank you

.
that was a good episode of the office.

06.02.11

"sometimes you just have to take a deep breath and count your blessings. even when the moment feels bleak." -amy jo johnson
sometimes i feel like i'm just holding my breath waiting for the inevitable waves to come crashing down on me.
sometimes i forget that i should be cherishing each moment instead.

05.27.11

finished reading the new sookie stackhouse novel by charlene harris. as always, it entertains me and leaves me wishing that the next book was already out. it makes me sad to see the bond between sookie and eric end, i really like the relationship between sookie and eric. dying to know what happens next in the story.
i'm actually dying to see this happen on true blood. dying to see a lot of things happen on true bloods.
in the mean time, i'll need to find other books to entertain me.

05.15.11

my sister came to visit with my nephew today. he is so big now and so cute with the long hair. he's learning to talk now and keeps muttering gibberish.
he's such a good kid, he keeps finding random things to play with and then he gets bored with it and then he puts it back away before finding something else to entertain himself with. first it was the chair

that he used to use it to climb up everywhere and everything.
then a giant wooden stick

that he pretended was a gun.
then it was the ruler

that he used to measure the whole house with.
then chopsticks

and then giant earphones

before he settled down to watch spongebob.

05.04.11

went to watch ghost stories with r.a.y.j. last night. it was not fun at all. j and i screamed like idiots at the worst parts and then could not stop laughing hysterically at how stupid we were for screaming. it was terrifying. some parts were actually terrifying and some were just startling scary. but now i can't sleep with my back to the door cause i keep hearing that stupid giant doll going "daddy?" j and i have decided that we are not allowed to ever sit beside each other again during any scary movies. we were terrible. i would scream at something stupid and make j scream and then j would scream at something else and make me scream too. it was hilarious at one point when someone by us was freaking out and kept going fuck! oh fuck! *some* people didn't think it was scary because it was so stage-y. but i thought it was terrifying.

04.24.11

botched a konad

botched konad :( and had to re-do my konadicure

still not entirely happy with it though.
also learning how to make jewellery. more specifically ea

g i kinda like these, but still working on it, technique and idea wise.
*sigh* i feel like i wasted most of my day even though i have so much to do. i'm kinda dreading the weekend ending! plus people are still coming in all day to view our house. makes it really hard to do anything. like my laundry. which i need to do since i haven't done it in two weeks and i have no more office clothes for work tomorrow!

04.23.11

dwight: prison mike, what's the very, very worst thing about prison?
michael: the worst thing about prison was the...was the dementors! they...were flying all over the place and they was scary and they come down and they suck the soul out of your body and it hurt!
- the office, season three, "the convict"

a lot of people coming to view the house today! pretty much from 11am we have a few coming in every hour until 7pm! which is good, maybe we can sell the house faster, but still, it's weird having all these strangers walking into your room adn making the same comments to you!

04.22.11

long weekend :) can't wait to see the girls tonight! we're cooking cheese and spinach ravioli with grilled veggies. i'm making crab-stuffed portobello mushrooms for appetizers and we have cupcakes for dessert! so yay :D
it's been a pretty busy week. just found out that we have people coming on saturday to view the house. so now i have to go back to cleaning my room and the house before these people show up!!

04.21.11

"if you must say yes, say it with an open heart. if you must say no, say it without fear." - paulo coelho

04.18.11

been watching csi ny and criminal minds, they so need to do a csi ny and criminal minds crossover! how freaking cool would it be to see gary sinise's mac taylor and thomas gibson's hotch working together on a crime scene??
i think it would be pretty cool! :D the fbi's profilers would go to new york to work on a serial killer case and work with mac's team of csi's! it could totally work! someone get this to the csi and cm people please!

04.17.11

woke up with the hugest smile on my face! i dreamt that kurt was singing bsb on glee to his dad! i so want the boys to be on glee now! it would be so super awesome!
and btw, i love having the time to do stuff again! well sorta. now my big project is to clear out my bedroom and get it ready for showings and moving. i'm a little bit worried though since we're moving from a house to an apartment and the rooms are significantly smaller. definitely will have to throw a lot of stuff away! dear god i don't know what i am going to do with all my books! but there is no way in hell that i am throwing those out!
maybe i'll consider giving away the ones that i bought also on my kobo to the local libraries...but still, though i love my kobo, there's nothing in the world like having an actual book in your hands. speaking of which, yay i can read for pleasure again and not some boring old textbook :) the only problem is which one should i read?? i still need to get city of fallen angels...hmmm...maybe that should be next! i've been dying to get it for weeks and to find out what happens!! stupid school some times! but there's still a list of other books i want to read that i've already bought! ok. maybe i'll be good and read what i have first...we'll see how long that lasts though...

and also, i think we just went through 3 of the 4 seasons today!

04.16.11

finally done school for the semester! today was my business law exam. i do not know how i did but at this point i don't even care any more! i am all schooled out!
but yay, i have time to be online again! not that there is anything new, i have missed posting up my latest konadicure experiments. been doing a lot of sponging and i think i am getting it! here are my latest

attempts!
now off to dinner with the family! they're all here to celebrate my dad and his gf's bday!

04.10.11

ok, taking a break to say that this is the best office scene ever! i think michael scott just bumped jim off of the most romantic moment ever spot!

04.03.11

just did my nails

, i liked the idea, but not sure the execution was as good though..
may need to re-visit this idea again.
ok. back to studying.

03.29.11

"some love never dies...even when you try to rid everything you can of it." -aaron carter
so true.
though in my case, it wasn't love. i think it was decided that it was infatuation. at the time it felt like i was in love though.
but even after all these years, sometimes my mind wanders in my dreams and thinks of him and then i can't keep myself from wondering about it for days.

03.28.11

"when it's dark enough, you can see the stars." -ralph waldo emerson

03.27.11

still procrastinating...did my nails

03.21.11

re-watching csi:ny as i'm trying to study. forgot how amazing stella bonasera is, i miss her. sela ward is amazing too, but stella was so bad ass.
flack is pretty damn awesome too; "yeah, from where i come from, still makes you a foreigner." one of flack's best one liners. :)
not much of a post this. i'm just procrastinating...

03.12.11

went to high tea out in richmond hill with the girls today. it was so much fun and the food was delicious! my favourite were the macroons and they had so many different flavours too! like black current, which was so good! and the cakes were so cute looking.
the best part was when we were trying to figure out how the tea pot worked and i decided to press down on it and the tea came pouring out and everyone was like what did you do?? and then we all realized oh wait, that *is* what you're supposed to do.
it was a good day.

03.09.11

will: who can tell us what an anthem is?
brittany: it's the bottom of an ant's pants
will: so close!

03.03.11

went curling yesterday with pc&co yesterday. i keep being told that it's an old people thing, but it's so much fun!
ended up with a giant bruise on my knee though! i knew i hit the ice, but i was kneeling down and it was a light tap on the knee. but then it started to hurt when i got home and that turned out to be a giant icky bruise. that's just lovely. but it was fun!
we lost against d's team, but then we won against the other team we played against, so yay us :)
we just need to do some practicing and then we can kick some ass :)

02.28.11

got a new position, so i did a new konadicure

for my first day! quite nervous, but i'm only re-training y, so it should be a fairly easy day! it'll ease me into my eventual role.

02.27.11

just came back from cat world with r.a.y.j.! omg i loved it so much and we got to play with a baby wolf, a baby tiger and a little baby skunk! it was definitely one of the best experiences of my life! got nibbled on by goats! and one in paricular tried to pick a fight with y! we met eyore! and then we were roaming around at night but got too spooked out by all the coyotes howling! in the morning though, we found out it was probably the wolves since apparntly they surround the whole area! it was hilarious though when we were trying to run away!

02.25.11

for the life of me, i cannot figure out why my alram clock on my new phone doesn't work!! must figure this out! i have woken up late almost every other day this week!
thank god it's friday! and tomorrow i go to jungle cat world with r.a.y.j.! so excited! i just want to hold a baby tiger!!

02.24.11

"a wise man said, how people treat you is their karma, how to react to them is yours." - joe mantegna

02.21.11

"love is like the clouds, sometimes it's visible, and other times it's hard to see"

02.20.11

happy birthday to brian :)
celebrating by watching the roommate with r.a.y.j. tonight!

02.17.11

couldn't stand my bb any more so i caved in and got a new phone! i'm so excited about playing around with it. the only thing that sucks is that it's a touch phone, and i cannot for the life of me type in the correct words for some reason! i have the fattest finger pads in the world! and plus, i can't text and walk any more. i had the keyboard memorized on my bb pearl, but now that the keyboards all flat and without the seperated key pads, i can't walk and text and know that i'mtexting the right thing without having to look at my phone! will definitely have to be something that i'll just have to get used to i suppose.
and btw, finally got the new nick carter cd. I LOVE IT!!! my favourite song is definitely falling in love again <3!! it's just such a cute song! i don't know how else to describe it!

02.04.11

omg bad day with the car! for some reason the locks won't lock! it just keeps popping back up after i've locked it!!! i wantto bring it to a mechanic now but my dad wants me to wait first for him to look at it first because he doesn't believe that something is wrong with my car. i know i'm a girl. but i think i know enough how to LOCK MY CAR DOOR! not worth arguing about it, so i'm waiting.
i can't believe i have to take the ttc to the go train to go to work again. that's gonna suck. and it's so cold outside too :(

01.30.11

still funny!! this too!!
you can always count on the office to make you laugh!

01.28.11

happy birthday nick carter

!!

01.24.11

my first hot yoga class today. omg i think i almost died. my head is killing me now, so i'm just gonna take two advils and go to sleep. good night.

01.20.11

ok. school has just started and i'm already slacking off. there's supposed to be an assignment that we do online each week that counts towards your participation marks that's worth 20% and i was going to do it today since i don't have time tm, i have a bday thing to go to. and i've just been online on fb and here...i promise next week i will be better though! promise promise promise!!
though i probably should go online and intro myself now...the week's almost over and i was gonna do it at the beginning of the week...

01.17.11

so since i've been sick for the past week, i have been so accustomed to being curled up in bed watching tv and in my pjs, that now, as soon as i get home, i change into my pj's and crawl into bed to read my textbook while playing star wars in the background.
i've found that star wars and lotr makes a perfect companion to doing school work. you already know it so well that you know which parts are your favourite and watch it so you get a little break from reading and then you go back to reading!

01.15.11

so i've been sick since saturday last week. i was at work and then i couldn't stop falling asleep and i knew there was something wrong. the last time i was like that was two years ago when i had the flu! so i went home early. had to drive and almost killed myself while i was half delerious and through crazy snow and then i just slept for two days straight until my dad finally made me see the doctor on monday and yup. flu with a mild bronchitis infection. so i've been on antibiotics and cough syrup the past week and passed out for the majority of the time.
started feeling better on wednesday. since then, i've been cuddled in bed watching movies on my computer! they first day i watched all my musicals - mr. schue was right, musicals definitely makes you feel better! then it was a lotr marathon and now i'm on a star wars marathon!
i can't believe that the year just started and i've already used up all of my sick days :(
but since i've been sick, i did a very quick konadicure

in bed!
and then *sigh* back to work tm. not feeling 100%, but better than i did last saturday, that's for sure!

01.07.11

bridal show with p and her sister tonight after they get off work! i'm super excited! i love wedding shows!
except i can't stop coughing still even with cough medicine so i can't have all the cakes they're gonna have :(

01.05.11

i don't know how it's possible that it's only the 5th and i'm already feeling sick! had to cancel hot yoga with r because i can't stop coughing like i'm a crazy person! what they hell!! :(

01.01.11

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! i can't believe it's 2

! but boy, did we know how to ring in the new year :)! it was a crazy night and one i'm not likely to forget anytime soon! although i think some people would rather that i did! ha!
and tm i'm gonna see the girls for a new year's brunch at milestones! the year is starting off perfectly!

12.29.10

spent last night with pc&co celebrating a belated c

! and we did our secret santa gift exchange! it was a fun night, especially seeing what everyone got each other and trying to guess who their secret santa was. p and i guessed almost everyone right :)

12.25.10

merry chistmas! hope everyone who's celebrating is spending time with loved ones <3 !

12.24.10

xmas nails

!

12.23.10

went to lab restaurant

with r.a.y.j. last night for our xmas dinner and secret

santa

exchange

timmy's

! the food was really good - especially that chocolate dessert

! if i could eat that for breakfast lunch and dinner, i would be forever happy! i'd also probably be very fat! but since there was five of us, we ordered all five of their desserts! there was one that was interesting in theory, movie snack

, but it wasn't my favourite. there was an apple pie made with ritz and that ended up being really good too. there was also a cheese dish, but i don't eat cheese. except i recently discovered smoked cheese due to r, and that stuff is so good! they had it on their cheese dish too, so that was the only one i had. and there was another one, but i don't remember what it's called, but it also wasn't my favourite.
for dinner, i had the fish and that was really good! r had some beet thing for her appetizer, she liked it. she had to bargain with the rest of us to try it and we didn't like it so much.
and then after that we went out for more desserts at a nearby cafe

!
it was a very good xmas dinner :D

12.20.10

ear piercing with p today! that was fun! not really. well, not the people who were there who were shoving us around as they try to get from store to store to get their last minute christmas shopping done. i hate the malls at this time of year.
we ran into w at claire's, who was doing her last minute xmas shopping. she stayed with us as moral support for p, but then had to turn away! but now p has her ears pierced in time for her wedding!

12.14.10

all day loungy day for r's bday! perfect day :)
the last time we did this was back in the hmv days when we had nothing to do and had all the time in the world. i miss those days when things were carefree and nothing mattered. work was just a means of getting money to go out and drink and have dinner with your friends. now it's a means of paying the bills. wish we could turn back time and go back to those days. it sucked to be in school, but things were so much easier and simpler then.

12.08.10

went and did circ-ability with r.a.y.j. yesterday. it was so much fun and yet so terrifying! today i am in pain! but it was really fun! i wish i wasn't so terrified of heights though. and also of letting go and just letting myself hang upside down. for some reason that absolutely terrified me!
so we learned how to do tricks on the trapeze, the weirdest one to do was the bird's nest. you had to flip yourself in such a way that it was so not right! or it didn't feel right anyway. no one else seemed to have this problem but me apparently. we also did stuff on the hoops. the last trick we did, where you hung on and just spun, that one was the funnest of them all to do! some of us were super dizzy afterwards, it was hilarious to watch. the hardest one to do was man on the moon, where you positioned yourself in such a way that you were balanced on this very thin hoop. that one i was terrified to let go of! it took some major convincing before i would finally let go.
my favourite was the silk though. that one felt safe to do even though it was probably one of the hardest ones to do! i was never good at the climbing ropes in elementry school, but i actually did ok on he silks! of course, we had a helping hand! but still, about half way up it, it was all you!
so that was my day yesterday! it was definitely one of the more fun things that we've tried to do!

12.05.10

so i went to my 9th

david

usher

concert

with

yesterday! we were so close to the stage and the venue was so small! it was at the drake hotel. very very cute! it was almost as good as the concert he did at brock university and we got to sit on the stage with him!

11.29.10

all i did yesterday was read and eat ringolos and gummy bears. best sunday ever. took a break and was reading the princess diaries series by meg cabot. i got through two books, and now i'm on princess in love

.
this was always one of my favourites! mostly because mia and michael finally get together :) but i also love how they got together! i forgot how entirely entertaining mia (and by exention meg cabot) is!
i really wish that someone would give me a job where i could just read novels all day long! that woud be my dream job. of course, there is the chance that i might get exceedingly fat from sitting there all day and reading and snacking on ringolos and gummy bears. but i think it's a chance i'd be willing to take!

"[lars] helped pick the card, but i would be happy if that was the extent of his contribution to this particular project. because he's a man, i cannot imagine his input is at all valuable" - pg 95; princess diaries 3, princess in love by meg cabot

11.22.10

so how amazing were the boys last night on the ama's? i seriously felt ike a 15 year old again watching the boys perform and i could not stop giggling and squealing. absolutely incredibe! i cannot wait for the tour now and to see what the two groups of boys will do next (hopefully an album with all new songs :D)! i feel like i should listen to some of the nkotb's music to familiarize myself in time for the tour so that i can enjoy the evening and not have to sit out and be like ??? i don't know any of this stuff!
and also watched harry potter on the friday with my friends. all i can say is wow! this is probably the best adaptation of the book ever! they kept pretty much all my favourite lines and i cannot wait for part two! although i wish that they did more with the harry potter/keacher story line. in the book you sympathized more with kreacher, but in the movie they sort of glazed over that and i always felt that was one of the best storylines in there because for so long you didn't like kreacher and then you find out his back story and then the kindness that harry shows him and then the loyalty kreacher has for harry, especially in the finally battle. that was one of my most favourite parts in the book. anyway, VERY glad that they did not leave it at a cliffhanger. i think they ended it beautifully!
it makes me wish david yates had directed poa now. poa was always my favourite book bc harry got to meet his dad's friends and there was so much significance for everything and how it related back to harry and his dad, but they never showed that in the movie. that and dumbleore was crazy in the third movie. the new dumbledore wasn't cool until ootp when he was dueling voldemort. then you realized omg, that's dumbledore!
of course, now that i've seen part one of movie seven, i have to go and re-read all my harry potter novels again! so off to read now :)

11.07.10

wedding planning with p and co last night. i think it went well! i'm definitely very excited and going through a lot of the bridal magazines, collecting ideas for decor and hair and makeup and just ideas for everything and anything. i cannot wait for the next steps :)
also had an amazing discussion with p and c after in starbucks about god and religion during their bible study. it was amazing to hear their stories and experiences and about why they became christians, and it was just a really good evening!
and also heard from r, who had a cow stick his head into their car window! i love that story!!
this has been a pretty big and eventful week, looking back at everything! or big for me anyway with all the major bsb announcements and all :D

11.05.10

david usher tickets finally went on sale today! thank you david usher! i can finally relax and stop checking your webpage every few minutes like a crazy stalker person!
also i re.did my nails and i really like r

this new look. still not exactly what i had in mind, but definitely better than the last one i tried, so i'm happy!

11.04.10

still nothing from david usher! he will be the death of me.
and omg bsb on oprah! i have never really liked oprah, but i think that possibly, she is god. she got kevin to come back!! my heart feels whole again and i could not stop tearing up! i miss having the five of them together! ♥
also new word of the day: meandering. courtesy of p!

11.03.10

OMG annoucement from ryan seacrest!!! i can't believe they're actually gonna do it! i'm so excited i think my mind might explode! the only down point is that g will probably be there and gross. but bsb

concert summer 2011!! never got into nkotb, so less excited about that. but bsb i'm definitely excited for!
it'll be interesting to see if any bsb fans vs nkotb fans break out into fights. hopefully we're a little older and know better, but still, some of these fans are kinda crazy...
and watching david usher tickets for r while she's away in india, i wish he or his people would just say when and what time they'll be on sale instead of just sometime this week. i am going crazy checking the site every other minute, terrified i'm going to miss it!!

11.02.10

tried a new konadicure, but i didn't like it, so no pictures. i may try a new one by the end of the week. i liked the idea, but it needs working on.

10.31.10

happy h

!!

10.27.10

finished the lost hero and i loved it! i love the new characters and getting to know the roman aspect of the greek gods. i'm definitely excited for the second book and to see if we'll finally meet this "new" percy jackson! i also cannot wait for the battle scenes, it's going to be amazing!
until then, going back to the fall: book two of the strain trilogy by guillermo del toro! so far it's an excellent read. a vampire series, but not the typical vampire.

10.26.10

i guess the universe wasn't listening. i want to know who these people are who voted for him. maybe they'll regret their choice when it comes to bite them in the ass.

10.25.10

went to vote today; if ford wins, i lose hope in humanity. i don't want a mayor who doesn't care about the needs of everyone and i can't understand why there are people out there who can be so cruel and heartless and uncaring. so i hope he loses - crossing my fingers!

10.24.10

my new konadicure

as they are being called, i just found out! i did this design a while ago on green, but you couldn't really see it, so i tried again on pink! i really like it! i would have been studying, except r diagnosed me with being too stressed out with school, so i did my nails instead! :)

also found this online today and it made me laugh - for anyone who's an office fan :)

10.22.10

reminded by r today as she dies laughing: "we'll require your face to guarantee the reservation to"

10.20.10

started the new book from rick riordan, the lost hero

so far i am in love with it! i love that he has bought back some of the old characters like annabeth and percy, even though all we have heard about percy so far is that he is missing. but i seriously do not want to put my ebook down. i'm dying to see how it ends!

10.19.10

yay! just found out that rick riordan's percy jackson series AND the new lost hero series is now available as e-versions :) will be getting my copy tm. for now back to hell :(

10.15.10

just gave myself a pedicure in starry starry flight and omg i love the colour! my toes are now super sparkly, like i dipped them into liquid silver :) the simple things that puts a smile on my face!

10.09.10

my first konad-ed

nails that i've done since i got the stuff that i've really really liked! i'm starting to get the hang of it! can't wait to get more stuff so that i can do more with my nails :)

10.03.10

N

2010!

09.29.10

my dad's friends came to visit, one's from bc and the other one from hk. both of them are living with us right now. love it though cause my bc aunt is an amazing cook, so dinner will be something new these next few days!

09.21.10

had dinner p

&co to celebrate the chinese mid.autumn festival! it was a lot of fun, and definitely nothing i've ever done with friends before, having a formal chinese dinner.

09.18.10

trying something new with the webite. not much time now to do the stuff i wanted to do and a lot of stuff is unfinished and bothering me...so hopefully this works out!

11.15.11
this might very well be my most bsb-tastic year! i got to see bsb at the nkotbsb concert and it was one of the most awesome and fun nights ever! i got to hug nick twice at his cd signing. then i got to see him again at his vip and concert in mississuga. and then today i met howie d with r!!
he is one of the sweetest people alive and took the time to talk to us and after meeting him, howie just shot to the number two spot on my fave bsb list. nick still retains the number one title :)
but r was right all this time, howie d is <3!

11.03.11
i went to mississuga by myself to see nick carter today. i was so nervous to go by myself, but i reasoned that it wasn't the first time i did something like go to a concert alone. plus, once it all started, it wouldn't matter anyway because it would just be me and nick and the music.
this was my first ever vip and my first nick carter concert and it was just so amazing. and he looked and sounded so amazing. and well worth every penny spent! he was so nice and so sincere and christ he can sing!
the vip was a little disappointing since the website said that we could get one item signed, but it ended up being a pre-signed poster. but honestly, it was my first vip and i had no real expectations so i think that all in all i was satisfied with it. some people weren't, but it was like at the cd signing - i went with no other expectations than to just see nick in person, up close and i ended up getting two hugs out of it! i think for me, it was just being able to see him, this person i have been in love with since my childhood days. and being able to say hi and just telling him thank you for your music, that was good enough for me.
and along the way, i even made some new nick carter friends! which, grateful because i would have just sat at a restaurant, or most likely in my car by myself after the vip until the concert started! but we ended up going to a nearby restaurant together and talking about our bsb memories and it was just so much fun!
the concert felt so short to me, but it was one of the most amazing concerts i have ever been to! which i know i say this after each concert, but this one *was* amazing. at one point he looked down at me and sang to me and i just melted. he also sang i've got you. that has always been one of my most in the whole wide world favorite songs ever and i was over the moon that he sang it. live. and it was amazing! plus i was in the third row so i mean, i could see every drop of sweat on him! but his voice, his smile, his laugh...he was just perfect. it was a night, a dream come true. a night away from my other reality and i'll bask in it for a little while :)
thank you nick carter for one of the most amazing nights of my life.

10.28.11
when this whole world gets too crazy
and there's nowhere left to go
i know you give me sanctuary
you're the only truth I know
you're the road back home

06.10.11

omg. i really did not expect to have as amazing a time at the nkotbsb show last night as i did. i was too young to have known nkotb when they first came out and when they came back again, i just never really paid attention, so i thought that i would just sit there when nkotb came out and then go nuts for bsb.
as it turns out nkotb were just as entertaining as bsb. i think that this truly was the best concert that i have ever been to. it sucked that i had to go alone, my cousin ended up cancelling last minute because she was stuck at work. but from the moment the boys came out to the very last note, i was screaming my inner fifteen year old teeny bopper heart out. it didn't matter that i didn't know any of the nkotb songs, i was right there dancing to the dancy songs and swaying to the ballads right along with everyone else.
the show was amazing and the song selection was perfect! and of coursing the dancing and the camaraderie between both bands was great to watch. it's like they're boy band soul mates.
joey mcintyre belting out please don't go girl gave me the spine tingles. i loved that the boys went out into the audience to pick girls to sing inbyh to. it was so sweet that brian picked this little girl! and nick was so cute when he dragged his "girl" all around the stage so that the cameras could show off her pants plastered with bsb's faces on them. and i loved that the boys came out into the audience during incomplete. i just wished i was sitting closer to where they were. and nkotb came out into the audience during one of their songs and it was cute, one of the guys stole some popcorn from a girl in the audience and then he stole the whole bag and threw it up at us. he danced with a little girl from the audience and then carried her back to her mother. it was really cute. it's so great to see how awesome they were with their fans!
and now i have a new crush on donnie wahlberg. it wasn't my fault though. he came out and was signing and then la di da he just ripped his freaking shirt off. HE RIPPED HIS FREAKING SHIRT OFF. and then my mind just stopped and i stopped screaming. i was so in shock that he just ripped his freaking shirt off. who does that?? but wow. he has freaking nice abs. that's all i have to say. and if you haven't figured it out, yes, my love for donnie wahlberg is purely superficial. i'm ok with that though.
but anyway. all today i had that NKOTBSB! chant in my head. and i have this stupid goofy grin on my face and i can't stop. i'm regretting not going to the show from june 8th. what an amazing show. but i'm glad i got to go to at least one. i need to find out the set list from the show last night, i need to know what songs nkotb did and find that song that i like!
this morning, on my way to work, i walked by the acc and i could not stop grinning goofily at it thinking that my boys were just in there last night performing. it was so good to see the boys back at the acc. the last time i saw them was for their last tour - the black and blue tour - before the five year hiatus. i remember that it was the night after 9/11 and the boys asked for silence in remembrance of daniel lee and the room went so silent you really could hear a pin drop. it still gives me shivers, remembering how silent we were for those few moments.
but last night, the screams, the energy, the love just hit me with such force i almost got teary eyed and it was absolutely amazing. it was as if for those few hours, watching the boys perform, watching all nine of them, nothing else mattered, nothing else existed but me and them and the music and all their crazy fans!
i hope that they make this into a dvd. because it is one night that i want to be able to play over and over and over again. truly, it was a magical night.

a collection of the earrings i have made...